I’m walking stoops in California park.
There used to be this husband and wife homeless couple who literally lived in the back of the field house the entire winter. Remarkably, they would have quarrels and bickering between themselves. About what I’m not entirely certain of, yet when I’m passing by they put on a happy face as if trying to entice me into giving them some $$.
The husband is an alchy, that much I could tell. He had this horrid sounding, hoarse, gruff tone that was a cross between deep rooted anger, self loathing, and shame. Once I caught his attention and he jokingly asked ‘Excuse me good sir, do you happen to have any grey coupon?” like it was the funniest thing imaginable. So much so he made himself into a perfect uproar at his own joke.
Funny, I actually always loved those commercials, it brought be back to a different time when he had said that. Why did you have to ask me that of all things ? You couldn’t have simply said „hey mister, got any spare change ? I wanna buy some more booze“.
Once, while on a hot date in Wicker Park a smooth black guy came up to me and said “exceptional taste in women my friend” and I promptly gave him $5 because he just made me laugh beside myself. Another time a guy said „Yes I’ll be your panhandler for the evening, wanting to hit you up for $1 so I can get my drink on” lol. That had me in perfect stitches because he sounded so officious and brutally honest. I gave him a few bucks as well.
A time before we cared about things that trend, about how many steps we take, or what video we must see like it’s a life altering event. When I didn’t have to check e-mail more frequently than I already do.
Eventually the husband/wife team decided to leave their little nest, and I wondered where they’d gone. It turned out they moved to the more luxuriant park across the street, Horner. I still hear their bickering matches time to time, and thought why ? You’re already in an abject existence, why further plummet in a downward spiral.
The bums of my childhood were far different. Remarkably, they seemed to be the most charming and dignified, they hadn’t abandoned their own humanity indeed, it was all that they had left. Sometimes, I firmly hold that when life is at its cruelest and the world is indeed darkened, all you have left is yourself and God. Why throw in the towel even when you’re in a season of storms ?
Spring is coming
The winter was strange weather wise, the pattern erratic, capricious, just like the times we’re living in.
Lately, I’m curbing my internet usage. Firstly, it seems that it takes far too much me time away from me. I see the same olé things, people saying regurgitated things just rehashing what somebody else has said, passing it off as their own. Hard to tell who is saying what, really, or why. I feel that there ought to be a filtration system, just as we’re all adapt to drinking purified water, should our internets be any less purified ? How long are we going to suffer trolls, internet bullying, famewhores galore, and lotus eaters who seem to pollute and take it for granted, not really contributing anything worthwhile of it ? There should be standards, for reals.
I guess I just get sick and tired of happening upon what feels like one massive Jerry Springer audience all the time, people having flame wars and epic battles over stupid things, or people doing stupid things for attention. Stop it, you’re annoying me. Go back to school, work on your career. Being viral isn’t an ends to a means. Live the best life you possibly can. That person making a fool out of themselves ? They aren’t anything to be envious of. What’s enviable is reading books, expansion of your skills, working hard. Not what you can get, steal, take by force, or expect out of a sense of entitlement.